i understand where you’re coming from, you can do anything that you set yourself to do. i’m so sorry for these tragic things that’ve happened to you. there’s always a light at the end of the tunnel. i think the key to any addiction is to replace it with something else that’s healthy, and that you like to do. if you need anything or anyone to talk to you can always message me! i know what you mean about the not wanting to go back to school part. i’ve done the same things im ‘not so proud of’ that have gotten the town talking, but the way i see it is- it’s only human to make mistakes. everyone makes them every single day- who are the people in my town to judge ME for doing something wrong? i hold my head up high and tell myself that i am who i am, and there’s gonna be people who are jealous of that, don’t appreciate that, or think they’re better than me. just stand firm in who you are, and surround yourself with people who love you and you can trust.